july 9
feeling weirdly calm today even though nothing changed
july 8
to the six of you. i don’t even know what this is. maybe a breakdown. maybe something honest for once. maybe both. existing near you felt weird. like being there but never really there. like laughing too loud just so you’d notice. like pretending not to care when it was all i could think about. some of you made me feel everything. some of you made me feel nothing. both hurt in different ways. i don’t think any of you ever really saw me. not the full version. not the me who overthinks texts. not the me who replays convos at 3am. not the me who gets quiet when she’s falling apart. and i’m not blaming you. we’re all just trying to make it through whatever this life thing is. but it still sucked sometimes. sitting in a room full of people who knew my name but not my silence.maybe i loved some of you. maybe i still do. maybe it wasn’t love but something that felt close enough. you don’t have to say anything. this isn’t a cry for attention. it’s just me existing out loud for once. because i’m tired of holding it in and acting like i’m fine when i’m barely holding myself together. so if you read this and think it’s about you. it is.
july 7
tried to focus but my mind kept drifting everywhere
july 6
i wanted to say something real but stopped myself
july 5
the silence was louder than usual today
july 4
watched the sky turn colors and felt a little hopeful
july 3
i felt tired but didn’t want to sleep
july 2
sometimes i wonder what people really see in me
july 1
july started and i’m still figuring things out
june 30
the day felt heavy but i kept moving anyway
june 29
i smiled today even though it was hard
june 28
felt like disappearing but stayed anyway
june 27
sometimes the quiet scares me more than noise
june 26
i tried to find peace but it slipped away
june 25
the world keeps spinning and so do i
june 24
i caught myself smiling without knowing why
june 23
some days i’m okay some days i’m not
june 22
i’m tired but still here breathing
june 21
today was messy but i survived
june 20
i’m learning to be gentle with myself
june 19
sometimes i laugh to hide the cracks
june 18
the silence was heavy today
june 17
i’m still figuring things out day by day
june 16
i wanted to disappear but showed up instead
june 15
some days feel like a battle but i keep going
june 14
i’m holding onto hope even when it’s fragile
june 13
today felt heavy but i survived it
june 12
i’m learning to accept that some days are harder than others
june 11
watched the clouds drift and wished i could do the same
june 10
i smiled at a stranger and it felt like magic
june 9
i’m tired but not giving up yet
june 8
some days i’m quiet some days i’m loud
june 7
today was a quiet kind of beautiful
june 6
i’m learning to trust my own voice
june 5
the nights feel long but i’m still here
june 4
sometimes i feel lost but that’s okay
june 3
i’m trying to let go of what i can’t control
june 2
today was slow but i kept moving
june 1
june started quietly but with a spark inside me
may 31
sometimes it’s okay to not have all the answers.
may 30
i’m learning to be softer with myself each day.
may 29
the little things still catch me off guard.
may 28
today felt heavy but i kept going.
may 27
i’m tired but not giving up yet.
may 26
some days i’m quiet some days i’m loud.
may 25
i caught a glimpse of hope today.
may 24
learning to accept myself as i am.
may 23
sometimes i just want to disappear.
may 22
i’m holding onto moments that matter.
may 21
the nights feel long but i’m still here.
may 20
today was messy but i survived.
may 19
sometimes i laugh to cover pain.
may 18
i’m learning to trust my own voice.
may 17
quiet moments are my refuge.
may 16
some days feel like a battle.
may 15
i’m tired but hopeful.
may 14
the world feels both big and small.
may 13
sometimes i just need to be still.
may 12
i’m learning that healing takes time.
may 11
the silence is louder on some days.
may 10
i smiled today even though it was hard.
may 9
i’m trying to let go of the past.
may 8
the night feels safe even when it’s dark.
may 7
some days i feel lost but i keep moving.
may 6
i’m learning to be kind to myself.
may 5
today was a quiet kind of beautiful.
may 4
sometimes i’m scared but i’m still here.
may 3
i’m trying to find light in the dark.
may 2
some days are harder than others.
may 1
may started with quiet hope inside me.
april 30
sometimes all i want is to disappear for a while.
april 29
i’m learning that healing isn’t linear.
april 28
today i felt small but not invisible.
april 27
sometimes i’m scared of how much i care.
april 26
the quiet moments hurt the most.
april 25
i’m trying to find peace in the chaos around me.
april 24
i laughed today even though it was hard.
april 23
i’m still learning to trust myself.
april 22
sometimes i feel like i’m too much and not enough at the same time.
april 21
i’m holding onto hope even when it’s fragile.
april 20
i felt tired but kept moving forward anyway.
april 19
today was a reminder that i’m still here.
april 18
sometimes i need to rest without feeling guilty.
april 17
i’m learning to be gentle with myself.
april 16
i smiled today even though it was hard.
april 15
i’m tired but hopeful.
april 14
i’m still figuring things out day by day.
april 13
sometimes i just want to scream into pillows.
april 12
today felt heavy but i survived it.
april 11
i’m learning to love my quiet moments.
april 10
the world keeps turning and so do i.
april 9
sometimes i feel lost but that’s okay.
april 8
i’m trying to let go of what i can’t control.
april 7
i smiled at a stranger and it felt like magic.
april 6
today was a quiet kind of beautiful.
april 5
i’m learning to be patient with myself.
april 4
sometimes i just need to breathe.
april 3
today was slow but i kept moving.
april 2
i’m tired but still hopeful.
april 1
april started quietly but with a spark inside me.
march 31
i’m tired of pretending. maybe tomorrow i’ll be honest.
march 30
the sun was too bright but i still looked up.
march 29
i’m learning that silence can be both heavy and healing.
march 28
felt a little less alone today. maybe that’s progress.
march 27
i’m still figuring out how to breathe through the noise.
march 26
watched the clouds drift and wished i could do the same.
march 25
sometimes i’m okay. sometimes i’m not. both are true.
march 24
i caught myself smiling without knowing why.
march 23
words fail me but my heart keeps speaking.
march 22
i’m tired of the chaos but i’m scared of the quiet too.
march 21
i’m learning to hold my own hand in the dark.
march 20
the night is long but so am i.
march 19
today was messy but i survived it anyway.
march 18
i wanted to disappear but instead i showed up.
march 17
i’m learning to be gentle with my mistakes.
march 16
sometimes i’m loud even when i want to be quiet.
march 15
the days blur but i’m still here.
march 14
i’m holding onto hope even when it feels fragile.
march 13
i’m tired but still trying.
march 12
i’m learning to accept that some days are harder than others.
march 11
i wished for peace and got a quiet storm instead.
march 10
i’m still searching for pieces of myself in the chaos.
march 9
sometimes i laugh to cover up the cracks.
march 8
i’m learning to be okay with not being okay.
march 7
i don’t have all the answers but i’m still asking questions.
march 6
i held onto the small moments today like treasures.
march 5
sometimes silence says more than words ever could.
march 4
i felt the weight of loneliness but didn’t let it win.
march 3
the world keeps spinning and so do i.
march 2
i’m tired but i’m still here breathing.
march 1
march began with a quiet hope inside me.
february 28
i feel like i’m forgetting how to be easy with myself. like i’m always holding back.
february 27
the cold is sharper than usual. maybe it’s just me getting softer.
february 26
i rewrote the same sentence ten times and still deleted it all.
february 25
someone said my name today like they actually meant it. it shook me.
february 24
the sky was gray but my thoughts were louder.
february 23
i put on music and almost danced but stopped because the world felt too big.
february 22
sometimes i want to scream into pillows. sometimes i just whisper to myself.
february 21
i forgot what happiness felt like. trying to find it again in tiny moments.
february 20
the silence in my room is louder than any noise outside.
february 19
i wrote a letter to no one and still haven’t sent it.
february 18
the days blend but i remember the way light hit my window this morning.
february 17
i smiled at a stranger today. it felt like a secret we shared.
february 16
sometimes my thoughts spiral and sometimes they rest. i’m learning to hold both.
february 15
i’m tired but i keep moving. maybe that’s enough.
february 14
valentines day felt like a whisper. i didn’t mind the quiet.
february 13
sometimes i want to disappear just to see who notices.
february 12
my thoughts are a mess of colors i can’t name.
february 11
i watched the rain and felt like it was crying for me.
february 10
today was a quiet kind of sad that doesn’t need words.
february 9
i wanted to say something but the words got stuck in my throat.
february 8
i felt the weight of my own thoughts like a heavy coat.
february 7
some days i’m loud. most days i’m quiet. both feel like survival.
february 6
i tried to find peace in the chaos but it slipped through my fingers.
february 5
i caught my reflection and barely recognized myself.
february 4
the world felt too fast today. i wanted to slow down time.
february 3
i whispered secrets to the night and hoped they stayed safe.
february 2
there’s a tiredness in my bones i can’t explain.
february 1
started february hoping for something different but feeling the same.
january 31
i think i’m starting to feel again. it’s weird. and a little scary.